Fleeting
emotions
Every night I tell
my self
"you're ugly,
you're worthless"
Then I cry myself to sleep
To put myself into
the darkness
Wishing to wake up
to a place
where no one knows
me
To start anew? No,
to be alone
I
cannot stop these feelings
Always wanting to hurt
myself
Taking pleasure in
degrading myself
I am out of my mind
Wanting to go
dreaming forever
Escaping from reality
Hating where I am
I am not worthy to
this life I am living
I need to suffer
more
I need pain to wake me up
But I am scared of everything
I am a coward
Always running away
A waste living
in this world
I am tired of
hurting myself
But I keep doing it
I deserved to be
like this
I keep failing and failing
Falling down into the dark abyss
Where I belong
A twisted mind, A foul soul
